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Tuesday, February 9, 2010 @ 8:10 PM

i've been thinking that i don't need to bother other people.
i don't need to tell them how i feel.
burden them with my thoughts.
because, really, they're worth nothing.
but i've found out,
that in the end, this is the only place i can run to,
it's the place where i can tell my feelings.
but even that, i don't really know.
what do i know?
am i who i think i am?
why aren't i happy with the things i think i'm happy with?
i'm too late for this. did i only realise it now? i can't change anything now.
i'll be at a standstill forever.

and lies lies lies
i've been showing everyone lies.
is everyone like this?
i'm not really sure.

i'm a soft person.
i'm only so young.
i don't know how to deal with issues like this.
i want to curl up into a corner and cry,
so when i do need to cry, i don't have any tears left.
i want to cry so much,
where no one can see me,
that's the only time when i want to be alone.

but, things like these
the things i've been doing,
the things i've tried to patch up,
in the end id nothing.
because,
these excuses,
just tell me exactly how weak i am.
i don't like it.

if only life would go the way you wanted it too. then i would be surrounded by rainbows, ponies and unicorns, sunflowers, butterflies and chasing rabbits the whole day.




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