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♥ 09 reflection

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 @ 2:29 PM

hello.

yes, i know, it's not the end of the year quite yet but i'm busy on new years + i want to make a '10 post but i will do that tomorrow.

as i type this i'm thinking that it will be a long post because it is my reflection on 2009. anyways. i shall start.

in my first day of school i woke up at 6:30. i didn't know what high school had to offer me, and i remember once asking someone where the b block was when i was lost. i remember once when i read the wrong timetable and showed up at class late and told the teacher i was in the toilet. i thought, as the weeks went on, i was adjusting to school nicely. i was getting used to the routine. getting used to waiting at the canteen lines, but i was wrong. i didn't adjust in a matter of 3 weeks.

i didn't adjust to my friends either.

they were old friends, (most of them anyways) and leaving them for other people was like impossible for me (at that time) because i couldn't bear getting away from people i've been friends for about 2-3 years with. whenever one of them did something i didn't quite like, i would think who are you to treat me that way but i was easily swayed when they did something better for me, i would think i'll make my decision after this week but i never really did. later in the year i found that one of them in fact hated me at that time. (i never really knew the reason why)

but then i found someone who i could push my worries upon. because of her, i found the strength to be able to face them upstraight and say, 'i don't like you.' and in the end, they didn't really care about me much at all ("weren't you always with us?")

i got wonderful friends. ♥
and that fight i had with my old ones,
i will never regret.

around june or something though, i found out that the "friend who i could push all my worries upon" wasn't that anymore. not knowing what to do i plunged into the problem deeper. then i found out why. now, it's still not what it used to be, but it's not remotely even a problem anymore.

when our circle of friends grew larger, i got moreee friends. yayyyy! + got closer with some people.

friending drama and stuff out, to the next topic. school academics.

stupid stupid stupid mr donald.

i had such a laid back attitude in year 6 and i was still the top of the class, but now i know it's not the case in high school.

i got disappointed in myself.

another thing interesting is me growing into je fandom.

on april 19th was the first time i got exposed to kat-tun in the internet. it grew to je love. now kat-tun's all ugly but hahah kame still rules haha

being able to obsess over them with friend(s) was really fun, plus all the stuff we'd done because of them haahaha

and i know i might seem like an obsessed freak but sometimes listening to NEWS's happy birthday makes my day feel better (and sometimes its so annyoing i skip it)

ANYWAYS

that's the end of my reflection for this year.

overview: yr7 was a year of adjusting, being able to know where i have to aim for, what my limit is, where i should go and what i should do.
i'm beginning to understand things that i have never thought about.

yr7 has changed and matured me, and i hope yr8 and the coming years do the same.


ON ANOTHER NOTE.
i just cut my hair.
which the fringe is ridiculously short.
i feel ashamed.
the water made it look longer than i wanted it too.
so i told the guy to cut it shorter.
but NOOOOO when it puffed up it got ugly!

oh well

going to japan
in
16 days
=D




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